I had no idea what to write about this morning. It has been a pretty crazy week. And although I hate to admit it, I think I needed to get back into the routine of daily life. The kids have for the most part calmed down after being off school for 8 total school days due to the Blizzard of 2010. They are back to school almost full time, with 2 hour delays through today! Their activities have run as scheduled. I have had my scheduled meetings and those missed due to snow are being rescheduled. Trying to get everything done at work has proven to be a little tricky but because many areas are still not clear, some of my students have not come to school giving me extra time to get caught up. I at least have had time to develop a new schedule so I know where I need to be and when during the work week. My thumb has been causing me some grief after a fall skiing last weekend, I didn't have it looked at although clearly should have because it is messed up! My middle son ran into a door jam at his older brother's basketball game which forced a trip to the ER and precluded me from taking care of my thumb. It started to feel better so I ignored it and then it started to get worse! I go in this afternoon to see the orthopedic surgeon who will likely do my knee surgery in the spring. It is quite amusing with my thumb because I have dropped so many things on the floor this week. They just slip right out of my hand because I can't really hold anything. I think it is skier's thumb! We will see if my diagnosis is correct. Yesterday my husband had a lovely meeting at work where he was officially told he would loose the grant that provides him with 7% of his salary. The good news is he will work a half hour less. The bad news is that the expectations are the same. Not only that, but we will also loose our health insurance benefit because they have decided that they don't care that you and your spouse both work for the same school district and will take away our reduced rate. P.S. they are not telling anyone though! Oh and I wanted to put my youngest in day care because my kids eat nothing but snacks all day and because my mother lets my kids eat in the family room (or anywhere else they want) I am embarrassed to have people over my house because my couches should be condemned! And I love to entertain! I live my life everyday wanting it to be something other than it is. It is not that I don't love my life, I have everything I wanted, a loving husband and 4 amazing kids. But, I am currently lost in my life. I have no idea which way is up because I have volunteered for all these activities at the kids school and church and now can't get out from under them. I want to be the perfect "homemaker" (I just got into my time machine and travelled to 1950)! I like to bake and prepare homemade meals, plan new menus, do crafts with the kids, and volunteer for many activities at their school. I have neglected church where I feel like I should be providing service; I am currently the family forum leader. This group is so in the dark about who I really am. If they only knew! They would see that I don't have it all together! I have repeatedly told my husband in the past week that I want to move. I want to get out of this crazy fast paced area in which we live. I am from NY. My husband would never move there because he doesn't like the lifestyle and everyone is rude. I totally agree, but feel only slightly different living where we do. It is just as fast paced, the people are nicer (it is a southern thing) and everything is newer, but 15 years from now I fear it will be just like where I grew up. And this makes my youngest child 16, still in HS and totally hating us if we were to move then. So that is it, my week in a nut shell. But today I feel some sense of relief. It is Friday and I have let all this out. My husband is a saint! He listened to it all yesterday afternoon after the meeting. He is so loving! Amazing! And so I can go on until my next emotional outpouring in the same manner as I live the rest of the days! And hopefully I will be able to enjoy a glass of wine tonight at BUNKO and not drop it on the floor because of my thumb!!!